Today I am having struggles in my mind. I realize this is normal. Anytime you breakup it takes time to heal and ruminating about the breakup happens. Most of the time I can control it. For some reason today I am failing at it and it is making me suffer emotionally. I just want it to stop. I have been practicing what I have learned about turning it over to the universe but it just comes back. I do not understand why my own mind tortures me so.
I know this will get better. I know it was not my fault and I know it was the best thing I could have done. I am way better off without someone who did not love me and was not there for me when I needed him. Why do I torture myself over someone who never deserved me?