Today I am having struggles in my mind.  I realize this is normal.  Anytime you breakup it takes time to heal and ruminating about the breakup happens.  Most of the time I can control it.  For some reason today I am failing at it and it is making me suffer emotionally.  I just want it to stop.  I have been practicing what I have learned about turning it over to the universe but it just comes back.  I do not understand why my own mind tortures me so.

I know this will get better.  I know it was not my fault and I know it was the best thing I could have done.  I am way better off without someone who did not love me and was not there for me when I needed him.  Why do I torture myself over someone who never deserved me?