I have a story to tell. I have wanted to write it for many years. I think the reason it has not been written yet was the fact that a major chapter with some lessons that I needed to learn before I wrote it had to happen. That chapter has just ended. It is time to write my story. I am going to be using this blog to tell the story of my life and to just open myself up. If you have been a part of my life or are a part of my life you may see yourself here. If you are one of my x’s there will be some stories about that time of my life. I do not intend to focus on the bad behavior of other people though in some cases it is warranted and I will not hold back. (Please read my about section if you have concerns about this https://rauncie.com/about/ )I intend to focus on my lessons and how I moved on each time I learned something. Sometimes that moving on was not something I wanted to do. Those times left me miserable and sad for months and sometimes years. My most recent lesson was focused on learning to say no and have boundaries. I needed to learn that if someone does not respect me then losing them is not a loss that will affect me negatively in the long term. Most recently I was holding myself back, not doing what makes my heart sing and lost my joy for things that I loved like music, dancing and art. The screaming voice inside of me had been sounding months before I went to the hospital at the end of May and ended up in intensive therapy. I stopped drinking that weekend. I began to focus on me but I was still trying to hold on to something that was wounding me. I was living the 10 of swords. I was close to the end of a cycle but I was trapped and surrounded by danger. I could not move and I felt doom hanging over me all the time. I constantly questioned myself and whether I was truly cared for. That is a heavy load to carry. I found this tarot card which is part of the Tarot of the Silicon Dawn which you can order on amazon. I ordered the deck today to add to my collection. It is very interesting and different than any deck I have and I feel I can use this with some of my alternative tarot clients. Visit egypt.urnash.com to find out more about the artist Margaret Trauth if you like this card.
So if you are interested in reading more about my journey I hope you will stick around. I will be talking about tarot and magic in addition to my journey.
Thanks for reading and being a witness to my journey.