So I finally decided to leave Facebook. This was not an easy decision. I have used FB to keep up with family and friends for almost 10 years. I checked it many times a day and it was the first thing I saw in the morning and the last thing at night. Over time it has gotten out of control and grown into a huge monster that needs to be fed every hour or so. It is constantly tapping on my shoulder and asking for attention and I just cannot do it anymore. It is like being in a really bad relationship that you have trouble letting go of because of the good memories. I feel sick at my stomach about it. I feel like I am already going through withdrawal. I am having thoughts about how I will miss out on everything and that I will be forgotten and left behind. That is pretty heavy for me because abandonment is a huge issue for me. But I have to do this. I can no longer spend hours reading posts and negative news. I can no longer scroll past pictures that make my heart hurt. I had a conversation with a friend last night who let me know that her sister had similar issues and deleted her Facebook app but uploaded the messenger so she could keep in contact with people. I have decided to do that. I will be keeping my messenger so that I can continue to talk to my close family and friends on a one to one basis.
I found a website for people who are leaving Facebook. They challenge you to 99 days and at the end they interview you about your happiness level. It is 99daysoffreedom.com. I am going to use that countdown as well and be a part of the experiment. It has inspired me to do 99 days instead of the month I originally planned.
So here we go…..