This is my story.  I think it is important to note “my” story and my perspective in the moment.  My perspective will change at times once I have digested something and given it more thought.  I will not however hold back from writing because I am afraid I will change my mind or find I am completely wrong.  I want this process to be one that I share with others for a couple of reasons.  I believe that being afraid of admitting we were wrong can sometimes paralyze us and keep us from writing.  I am not afraid to say I am wrong.  I am not afraid to apologize.  Secondly I want to express what I am feeling when I am feeling it.  I want to be raw and open when it is happening because I want others to understand that it is OK to feel.  Do not be ashamed of all the natural human emotions that you have.  I am doing my best to not be ashamed of what I am feeling.  I will not tolerate shaming of myself or others when it comes to this.  I may cuss and I may have pity parties sometimes.  That is not something I want to do regularly but it is what it is.  I will be writing about the past, the present and the future and how it relates to me right this moment.  I suffer from PTSD, Anxiety and Depression and this blog is about the life I live.

My name is Rauncie.  I am 56 years old and I didn’t ruin my life.  I am recreating my life even as I write this.