Samhain is here and the winds of change are blowing.
I am making some choices I knew I would have to make. They are choices that hurt my heart but they must be done. I have come to realize that in the past I have chosen people because they treat me the same way I treated myself…with disdain and at the very most with shallow affection. When people were kind to me I was suspicious of them and I pushed them away and pulled the people who mistreated me closer. It was easy to put on a costume and be someone else because that is not Rauncie it is just a role I fill for awhile. It has left me feeling empty and lonely so many times. I am embarking on a new journey. It seems that this change was brought to me by the universe and I need to pick up my broom and ride on. I deserve this. I deserve to be treated with kindness and love.
I will miss some of the people I have come to care about but it’s time to move on.