I have always struggled with creating boundaries and sticking to them. I was always afraid in doing so people would walk away from me. This is how I lose myself. I don’t ever want to lose myself again. I have certain boundaries for anyone I would even consider dating for the future. The thing is…I am not sure I ever want to date again. It is something I am putting considerable thought into. I always rush in and I see others do the same. It is not a good thing. If we jump into a relationship during the first 6 months we are still riding the wave of chemicals. We are not stepping back to see if this person is really someone you want to be with. I will never do that again. I am back to being the Ice Queen who disappears when someone shows too much interest. I should have done that two years ago…but I learned from that mistake. There were some wonderful times but the bad truly outweighs the good in this case. Sadly I am still mourning the good and am struggling to remind myself of why it was so bad.