Last night I closed the door. I would be lying if I said that I had closed it months ago. I kept it ajar and checked it on occasion to see if there was still some possibility. But the truth is that I did not want to step back through that door. When I was a part of that relationship I was living a lie. I was trying to be something I was not to make someone else happy and in the process I was killing my true self. When things ended I was bitter and angry and I put that anger on the wrong person. I am sorry for that. I will no longer blame someone who is not to blame. I will not blame anyone. I have looked my past in the face and said I forgive you and I am ready to move on. I needed to say it. I needed to say goodbye for good to what I used to to have. Each chapter of my life has a lesson in it. The lesson of this chapter has been to never lose my authentic self again. I get this thought in my head every time that this will be my last love, that I will never be loved again … that is not true. Right now I just need to work on daily meditations of forgiveness and taking care of myself. I wish nothing but happiness to those I have walked with in this world. I am a work in progress and your entrance in my life helped me to grow.