Not all anniversaries are joyous. Some of them are a reminder of the pain I have had in the past. It is weird how I will forget all about it but my body begins reacting days before and then on the day of the anniversary I will suddenly remember. It also helps that Facebook pops up with memories and I am like…oh yeah….This is what I have been going through the last week. I do not like to dwell on pain but I do like to examine where I am today in relation to events in my life in the past. I can say that today I am in a very different place. I have changed in ways I never thought I would. In this case I am actually glad it happened. I have gained a couple of solid friends out of this instance and one of them was quite a surprise. In addition my perception of the whole event has changed and today I have peace about it. 

So if you are in the midst of dealing with something that is hard just know you can do this. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself and allow yourself to scream, cry, write really bad shit and mourn what you have lost. Never let someone tell you that you have had enough time to get over it. Take all the time you need. In my case when this happened the universe said it’s time to level up Rauncie and this is going to hurt. Then it proceeded to bash me over the head. It was not lying…it hurt. I leveled up, but damn….what a journey.